WOW! I Really Did It!
I did it! I can't believe I did it, but I fucking did! What might you ask?! I restored every blog post from 2005 to present day. I used that fancy degree to read through thousands of lines of SQL and restored the posts using PHPMyAdmin.
Am I nervous about it?
Absolutely! Many years ago, my blog was found by my ex-husband's family, who made it their business to tell him about the posts I've been writing. In a rage, I deleted every single post and quit blogging. Since then, it's been an occasional semi-annual update (on a different domain), but nothing like I used to do.
Why I did it
I did it because my life story is just that. MINE! My posts throughout the years remind me that I'm not perfect, and that's okay. Over the last three days, I've enjoyed restoring each post. Going through my photos and reliving moments. Shedding real tears, but also laughing and remembering the good times.
I've built so many bonds while doing what I love... Writing. Writing has been my joy for as long as I can remember, and I hate that I let people take that away from me. I hate that I let judgmental people keep me away from my first love, and quite frankly, I'm glad to be back.
Life has changed so much, and I can't wait to share the new journey.
What you did? THAT!
Man, I'm proud of you. You came a long way. You faced some fears and look at you now. All the things that you thought would go left, went right. I love that for you. Sometimes we overthink in life and the worst possible scenario we can't help but to give it our precious time. And time is what we can't waste. Trusting in god and walking by faith. You know I got your back anyway you need me to be.